Another baby

It seems to be baby-having time. My friends Katrina and Patrick have a four-month old, my friends Emilie and Mike have a one-month old, and my friends Tammy and Roy have a one-week old. Dear god.

It's sort of a shock to the system, particularly some of the older friends. When I think back to when I first met Tammy, I would never in a million years have bet she would have had a baby with Roy. And five years ago I would have bet money that Katrina was going to be married to someone entirely different from her current (and wonderful, I should add), husband. Anyway, just kind of a surprise the way life sometimes turns out.

But on top of that, it sort of just reminds me of the things I am not doing. I have been in a relationship for nearly a year, and that is great, but I don't really feel like I am at the same stage in life as these couples with CHILDREN! I don't even know if I like my job enough to stick with it, and I feel like there is a lot of settling down going on around me, when what I want is to go out and make big changes.

I guess what I am trying to say is that the settling down of these great friends of mine (each of whom could someday change the world) sort of makes me doubt our ability to actually make any of that change.